Hey all,

Today embarks the first day of my journey.
I put 1 euro for the week!! jeeeej

Here is how my journey has been going:

Saving and not buying snacks

so.so.so.so.so HARD! I am not doing a good job at it at all.
why? I get hungry. I somehow convince myself that this time it is okay and somehow justify why I need this chips right now, like so bad.

Hello everyone,

How are you all doing?

I need to start saving.

I am currently 18 and I want to get some braces.
Making money is very difficult for me, especially since I live in a country with an unemployment rate of around 40 % percent. Yikes.
Sooo I have to still do it.........
How do I plan on doing it you may ask...
Here is how:
Save 1 euro per week. That equals to 52 euros per year.

In order to achieve this new goal of mine, I will have to be consistent and give up on a lot of things.
I want to record the process here so I feel more pressured to actually do it.
"The best predicator for future behaviour is past behaviour". I said this sentence today to refer to one of my friends. Me and my sisters were talking about our weight and my sister mentioned how a friend I am meeting today will surprise me since I will see how much weight she has lost.
I highly doubt it, I said to her. I have been around this friend for long enough to know that she does not follow through. She does not follow through her plans, like ever.
So I highly doubt she will have lost weight. I will see today and will update you. (she hasn't lost weight lol:) )
Anyhow- I started seeing how this relates to me. I am not someone who always follows through either. In fact, I *rarely* follow through.
I always leave things midway which is why I am so scared to start this new journey.
But, I have to. I MUST. I have to change.
See ya tomorrow!

Hello beautiful people of the worrrrrrrrrrrrrld,
what's popping?
lol okay I need to calm down.

Today I started my first JOB ever!
Yes, you heard it right, ladies and gentlemaaaan. I am officially an adult!
Now, because I am a memory hoarder I will describe how  that went for me
I started working at a call center.

Hello everyone,

There are so many things that come to mind, so many things on my mind that I frankly don't know where to start.
However, as you can guess it from the title the two major "themes" if you may on my life so far are Time Management and Insecurities.
Let's start with Time Management

Time Management:

I am really bad at managing my time. It is very hard for me to focus in just one thing. Thus, every time I create a schedule I don't even believe that I will follow through. And, for the most part, I don't. For one reason or the other. You want to be productive but there are so many distractions. One thing that has been added to my distraction list recently is the fact that I don't even know why I'm doing what I'm doing. For example if I'm studying I just find it so pointless. So pointless because in the next month, I know I will not remember a thing. This constant search for meaning makes it so hard to focus. What if instead what I'm doing now, I could be doing something more meaningful?
Maybe I should just stop searching for meaning. I find it so selfish. There is this obsession with purpose in my day and age, but maybe there is no such thing. At least, not for everyone. I don't know.
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Insecurities 

I turned 18 this week and woohoo just like that I am an adult.
I do not like this at all. I feel this instant pressure to be more responsible and somehow I feel more judged. About everything; my looks, my skills, my choices.




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The Solution

I think I should chill. Seriously. Not chill as in don't do anything but chill as in stop overthinking everything. Do your best everyday. Sometimes the best you can do is a little thing all day. So be it. Allow yourself to feel, just don't be defined by your feelings.


Thank you for reading,

till next time

xoxo

1.College

2. Projects and Extra-Curricular Activities

3. Vulnerability

4. Music and Creativity

5. Goals for my 18 year old self

• invest your time in good relationships

• create a better work routine

• keep pushing your limits and getting out of your comfort zone

• pick up a new skill, and practice enough to get better at it

• ALWAYS remind yourself that failing does not mean you're a failure just like succeeding doesn't mean you're a big shot. You are a human, who fails and succeeds.

• spread love

• pay more attention to yourself, your emotions and aspirations

• don't be afraid to speak your opinion

• don't be afraid of thinking too big