New Job and Failure
1:16:00 PMHello beautiful people of the worrrrrrrrrrrrrld,
what's popping?
lol okay I need to calm down.
Today I started my first JOB ever!
Yes, you heard it right, ladies and gentlemaaaan. I am officially an adult!
Now, because I am a memory hoarder I will describe how that went for me
I started working at a call center.
I didn't hear a thing you just said
I have no idea what to expect from the job. My job is to have people fill this questionnaire, pretty easy right? No, not right. Very left. hehe
So, on my way to the first job I decided to take a short-cut since I wanted to be there a little earlier than usual, because it was the first day and I wanted to make a good impression.
Well, turns out taking short-cuts on your first day to your new job is not the best idea.
Why you may ask? Yep, you guessed it I.GOT.LOST.
And then I was late :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :)
So, I go there. I get my username set-up and everything is ready for me to begin!
I begiiiiiin.
I am so nervous. The manager is standing there beside me telling me that it is okay. She is a good manager. Then she leaves.
So many people are not interested. Then, finally one that is. Wonderful!
I forget to press record, but it could be worse, right?
Then because I want to move on with the questions but also understand what the client is saying I am lost.
And the worst thing is that you can't practice at all. Because you have to make sales every time.
So many mistakes :(.
I made a consistent mistake of not "validating" the addresses.
What is happeningggg?
And it was so difficult to hear what the client was saying. I am hoping that was the headphone's fault.
This made me think of failure. And how I suck at dealing with it.
When I fail, I freak out. And after I freak out, I start questioning my existence and if I am a failure in total because how could anyone make such a mistake omg what nobody else is making these kinds of mistakes and im the only one and the world is ending... or not.
It is very hard for me to rationalize failure.
xoxo
Malsore
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